Maybe I should change majors?

I think I would like to write words for a living, because I never realized (until now) how many I have to say. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night writing things down that are running through my head......phrases, ideas, you name it it's in there.....and now for some reason I want to share them.

I saw this sign the other day at the gym, it said your health is a reflection of your happiness or vice versa...I can't remember exactly. I just stood there thinking...."What?" So.....as long as your not ill your allowed to be happy? Can I just tell you that before I was diagnosed with cancer I was extremely happy and didn't even know I was sick. In fact the seven months before I was diagnosed were some of the best times I have ever had and I felt so complete at that time....and then whammy! So I'm gonna go ahead and completely disagree with that statement....it's rubbish!

Has anyone ever tried those dating sites? Ya know, Match, E-Harmony, find your perfectmate.com? I don't even know if that last one exists, it just sounded good. Well, do they make anyone else feel like shit or is it just me? I think for the first time in my life I'm starting to realize that at 39 I might be considered too old for some men. So, is this age discrimination? My god....have I really gotten to this point in my life? I don't feel any different then I did at 20, it's just that the number attached to my age keeps getting higher...but not how I feel about myself....that doesn't really change. If anything I actually feel better and think I look better now then even 10 years ago......but I believe I get passed by (even by guys my own age) on these sites (not that I'm on any currently....ok....maybe just one) because of how old I am. So should I have lied to give myself a better chance? If these guys met me in person, saw me at the grocery store, gas station or just out and about in general....just let me toot my own horn for 5 seconds (and not in a stuck up way....that is soooo not me) they would take notice and not think I was my age at all. I just take shitty pictures! I think I am starting to realize the everyday facts of life more often now, and I'm not sure if I like them all.

Still no update on the new surgery date :( . Getting cut open sooner then later has never looked so good.